28 September 2008

And we'll never close our eyes

Heil, comrades! How spiffy of a day have I had? Actually my weekend was pretty great.

Parents left early yesterday morning for the Koufises' cottage, so it was just Emilio and I. I was feeling generally miserable for the most part, as I usually do on the weekend, but I eventually was distracted as I was doing homework until about 11ish. 

At about half-past midnight Anna signed in and I wasn't tired at all so I started talking to her. It was getting pretty late but we decided to pull an all-nighter. We ended up staying up til seven! It was mad! It actually got light outside! We had so many random conversations though. Actually at one point I passed out for twenty minutes. I ended up only getting two and a half hours of sleep haha I am pretty tired right now. 

Today I watched Jodhaa Akbar which Jyoti lent me. Thank god for subtitles. Anyway, it was great and I fucking love Hrithik Roshan. The end.

Greek quiz tomorrow! I'm not too worried, it's conjugating the future active indicative. Like you know, kepto/ klepso, phylatto/ phylaxo, mello/ melleso, etc. I just hope we don't have to decline any nouns because they are annoying. And the lesson I worked through on Friday evening had adjectives. Fuck! It's all so much.

Anna's popping by York again tomorrow so she can revel in the amazingness that is Professor Tordoff. Joy abound!

I am probably going to be getting a call this week to train at Subway and I realized that I really do not want to work. But I have to I guess. Oh well. 

Really looking forward to the Jewish holidays on Tuesday and Wednesday!! I will use the time to work on my Hymn to Apollo essay. 

26 September 2008

E non mi importa niente, ay ay ay ay!

Haha I have not written in a long time. I was going to yesterday, but something came up.

Life is good! Classes are going well (90% on the Greek quiz from Monday) and Anna has cheered up. Yesterday I felt like such a scholar. After history lecture I went to the Bakery Café at York Lanes, grabbed a large coffee, and worked on my Greek lesson for a couple of hours. I even saw Professor Tordoff there! It was like celeb-spotting!

Today was a Latin quiz. Ach et merde. I think I did alright though, besides a ridiculous mistake (wrote that "-que" and "-ne" where proclictics when I KNEW they were enclictics... I am a retard). Greek class was fun as usual, talking with Sarah and Dionysos etc. 

I plan to get a lot done this weekend. The parents are going up to Parry Sound, so it'll just be Emi and I. To do list?

  • next Latin lesson
  • next Greek lesson
  • Greek ancillary exercises
  • read four chapters of Writing History
  • start outline for essay on the Hymn to Apollo
  • read Learning Skills and Resources websites
  • watch Jodhaa Akbar 
  • read more of Zorba the Greek 
  • print lecture notes form this past week
I think that's it.

Oh! Yesterday afternoon I went in to Subway and filled out an application. It was alright I hope. Ray is very nice and apparently was going to call me in for the interview even before he knew I was Mallorie's friend. I just hated that I had to do math questions hahaha. Anyway I have to go in sometime next week for training. I was looking at some procedure charts in the office - it doesn't look anywhere near as confusing and complicated as Taco Bell/ KFC/ Pizza Hut was! I am very relieved.

Speaking of which, I think I am having Taco Bell for dinner tonight. Yay? I don't know, I'm kind of craving a taco but I know it's just going to make me sick. 

But in sum, things are looking up. Ish. I just have to quell my fears about the Myth essay. I should be fine! I'm pretty smart I think! 

I could go for a coffee right about now...

23 September 2008

Non mi tocchi più

I often say that I'm holed up somewhere or other in some building at York... but I'm almost serious this time! I'm on the fifth floor in some cubicle in a tiny little hallway beside a window. I can see the Rexall Centre from here, if that gives anyone any clues as to where I am exactly. I can see Pond Road too, the part that kind of extends and goes past Passy Court. Very nice, quiet... I've got some Tiziano Ferro in my ear. All is well. Ohm.

Did I blog on Sunday? Probably not, I was too busy reading The Moral Economy of the English Crowd in the Eighteenth Century by E.P. Thompson who should go kill himself now if he's not already dead. Very long, tedious, repetitive article. About wheat and corn. That was 61 pages long. Kill me? Anyway I read the whole thing so Colin can't hate me. And I bought my books finally. Now he REALLY cannot hate me! Shut up, Colin!!! 

Anyway I didn't even end up reading any of Hippolytus on Sunday because I figured I would read it during my five-hour break yesterday. Until I realized that I don't actually have to have started to read it until tomorrow. I just read the first few scenes last night. I really blame Peter for distracting me with his well-timed and tragic phone call Sunday evening. Betch. 

There's a poster sale at Vari Hall and I saw a kick-ass James Bond poster that I would love to send him but I can't because I'm poor. The same way he has to be far away because he is poor, and why we can't get married because we are both poor. Such is life. We're all dying in four years anyway. I will just keep saying, "No", and pretending I don't want to anyway. 

Shut up, Leah.

ANYWAY. Yesterday. Good? I think? I'm starting to forget my days. They all run together. I got nine hours of sleep Sunday night and still managed to wake up exhausted (as opposed to my six hours last night that left me feeling rejuvenated... wha?). Latin was fun... no grammar, just reading mostly. Oh, there was coding though... that's grammar. But fun grammar. Greek quiz. Ahahahaha. I think I did alright but it was only out of 10 so I had better only gotten one wrong! Still, we have one every week so no big deal. 

Then I got my books before spending hours doing shit all in some random hallway in Ross building. Looked a bit at one of my history books... I have to read chapters 1-7 by October 7th or something. Lots of time, and it's only about writing (i.e. essays). 

I had been walking through the SC and I saw random band tshirts for sale for $2 and there was a Bright Eyes one with Conor Oberst so I bought it for Anna. I texted her to tell her so she said she'd come by to get it since she was on the 196 anyway. I went to meet her at the Common (passing up a conversation with Dionysos, might I add!) and she was very happy. Coincidentially, Mauro (who goes to York anyway) and Edie (who also just happened to pop by York) showed up and it was all very happy. We all ended up going to the Myth lecture today. Anna took notes. It was a good time. Anna did enjoy looking at Tordoff, but unfortunately he wasn't lecturing. Fisher really isn't that bad though. He was funny yesterday too. Yay profs. 

Sucks that I have an assignment for that class though. Due in two weeksish. On the Hymn to Apollo. Lucky I like the Homeric hymns. Just a little anxious as I have no idea what kind of formatting they're looking for. Or even what kind of content. it has to be about history, geography, and genealogy. Maybe I should actually read the Hymn before getting nervous. 

Anna wrote a very lovely poem that I read last night. It was very sad. I am just heartbroken that she's going to be going through what I am currently experiencing. In fact, she seems to be grieving already that Chris will be gone in a year. And she told me to just live for the moment!!! She says she's not sad about it but I think she really is. Or maybe I'm just reacting in lieu of her. It's not been a good few weeks. Thank God for school.

I was supposed to go to this seminar about Memory today from 1-2 but I cancelled this morning. I really didn't feel like having to scarf down lunch between 12:30 and 1 as I walk to Bennett, nor did I want to have to rush from Bennett to Vanier at 2. Of course half an hour is enough but I don't like being rushed to go places. I have enough of that on Wednesdays, I don't need that on Tuesdays. There are more seminars next month anyway, if I really want to go to the Memory one there's still a chance. I do have a pretty good memory though. I've never had problems with that. I still plan to go to the Exam Prep one next week though. Not that I have problems with exams, it's just that I always panic and/or overstudy. 

So what is on the plan for tonight? Probably reading Hippolytus. And Hymn to Apollo. It's so odd not having to do any new Latin or Greek lessons because I've worked ahead. I might not have to do any new ones until the weekend. Fantastic! 

20 September 2008

Counter-productive production

I have gotten a lot done since yesterday evening in terms of homework stuff. However I am currently bored out of my mind and would kill for human contact outside of this bloody house. 

I feel like I am a Sim. And my social metre is seriously in the red. No wonder the woman at the time management seminar talked about balancing a social life with school and work life - we need social lives or else we will go mad. For an example, please see me right now. 

19 September 2008

I've opened up my heart oh so many times and now it's closed

Sadness HQ = the kitchen table, surrounded by books in different languages with a painful thumb. 

It started off as such a lovely day too. I got eight and a half hours of sleep. I understood Latin. I understood Greek! I chatted with Sarah and Dio and answered correctly when Surtees asked me questions.

Lewin showed up at 11:30 and stayed until 2:45ish. It was very nice. Nice to just talk to her and do a bit of ranting. And see her, obviously. She is not so bad when she is actually around.

Whenever I come home I get really down. I'm not sure why. Maybe because this place sucks and I hate it. I hate Bolton. I hate my father. I HATE EVERYTHING. Mostly I just hate the fact that whenever I talk to Anna lately she ends up making me feel really depressed about the whole disgustingly sorrowful Peter affair. It's fucked up that talking to my best friend can make me feel that way... indirectly of course, but it still sucks. 

Well what is great is that Subway called today and I am going in next Thursday to discuss times etc. I believe. It will be good because I will have money. It will be bad because I will not have a life. But at least I will have these things:
  • my G1
  • books
  • a tattoo
  • Bubble Tea <3 
  • my trip in five years' time
  • gifts for friends and family
  • the little fund I'm setting up for Emi
  • a nest egg in case of possible houseage or marriage
  • CDs
  • credit card?
And last... but not least... very important...
  • a ticket to Thessaloniki... maybe? 

18 September 2008

Remember Mrs. Lot when she turned around?

Nights are apparently not good times for me to be... alive? Hah no... bad way to put it. 

I've just found myself - YET AGAIN - in a terrible mood. In the evening. I'm not sure what it is. Maybe it's the fact that I don't have anything to distract me from all the things I try to forget about when I'm involved in something else. 

Schoolwise, life's been grand. The discussion group was actually really good yesterday. It was a lot more relaxed, and the new girl in the group is a really nice English major. I feel like I'm getting to know everyone and I'm not so intimidated by Megan and Barry anymore. 

Myth lecture was hilarious as usual. Tordoff talking about gangster Hades curb-crawling Persephone. And about Tom Cruise. All the usual random humour. Love that guy.

History today... was history. I must say though, I do prefer McPherson to Stephen. Stephen's lectures lack structure. It's hard to go all over the place while taking notes! I'm just worried about this 62-page article I have to read for Tuesday by E.P. Thompson. It's called "The Moral Economy of the British Crown". Delightful. Colin called it the article that would make us want to drop the course. Unfortunately that's not really an option for me! 

Speaking of Colin, I finally went to get my history books today and THEY WERE NOT THERE. Sold out! The profs only ordered 280 and there are 360 of us. ARGH. Now I have to wait until next week. But Germinal was there for some ridiculous reason so I bought it for only $12.60. Really pissed about Home, Work and Play and Writing History not being there though. At least we don't have to have any more of that done for next week's tutorial.

Today I had that green tea frozen yogurt. It was very great. 

Apparently Lew's coming to see me at York tomorrow. I haven't seen her since New Year's. We've been a bit shaky recently. I don't know if I should trust her when she says she's coming... she's notorious for just not showing up. But even if I talk shit behind her back sometimes, I really just want to see her. I don't know why I just keep feeling this way but I have just recently become aware of how alone I am, of how cut off from everything and everyone I am. I'm just constantly arguing with Anna because I don't tell her things. She says it's not about the things themselves, but the fact that I don't trust her and that it affects our relationship on a deeper level.

Conclusion: I suck at relationships... all of them. 

17 September 2008

Oh, Clodius...

Currently seated in the Student Centre on the second floor. Very fun(ish), but fried food is tempting. Actually, I'm more tempted by the Yogen Fruz. Green tea frozen yogurt... mmm. Must resist! Especially since I already spent about six bucks on lunch today. I had a Greek salad. It was Greek... a.k.a. very tasty. ;) 

Yesterday was a considerably better and less-tired day. I had my tutorial with Colin who is, as he was last week, fantastic and very friendly and I think I've been blessed with excellent profs and TAs. We watched a bit of a film called Ikwe which was about Native relations with British colonists. Yes, I have somehow been tricked into taking Canadian history. Haha joking aside, our course is mostly centered on the Brits. 

Today's been pretty fab. I got my Greek quiz back - 93% FTW! I hope I can maintain marks like that all year hahaha.... imagine? Humanities tutorial was entertaining. We talked about Theogony and Works and Days a bit more before going into Hymn to Demeter, which I rather thoroughly enjoyed. Fisher was describing the Eleusinian Mysteries at one point and I asked if they were comparable to the Bona Dea, which lead us going off on a tangent about Clodius Pulcher's infiltration of the ceremony when Pompeia Sulla and Aurelia Cotta headed it on behalf of Caesar... good times! I love that Clodius!

I've got that ridiculous discussion group in twelve minutes. It's not so ridiculous but I really don't want to go. I want a bit more of a break haha. Though I'd probably just waste my time anyway. 

This weekend I've got some hardcore general study to do. I'm still a bit iffy on the Latin declensions... and as for the Greek declensions... all I can say is, "Hahaha... NO."

15 September 2008

Burn Out

Today was one of the most exhausting days of my life. Despite the fact that we were up early yesterday morning and spent the whole day at Nonno and Nonna's making sauce and then eating a meal together, I just couldn't fall asleep last night. Result? Twelvish hours of sleep over 48 hours. NOT what I'm used to. 

I only vaguely remember today. I had a Greek quiz and I'm sure I aced it. I feel a little bad because Dionysos asked me for help over the weekend and I did all I could for him but I think he was still confused by all the grammatical terms being in Latin (i.e. ultima, antepenult, etc). Hopefully he did alright. He is a really nice guy. I've said it before but I'm so happy that there are REAL people at university. 

Humanities lecture was hilarious - Tordoff ran it again, of course. He's got such an energy about him... a real zeal for teaching this stuff. I hope that if I DO end up getting my PhD and becoming a professor I can be like him. 

Tomorrow is a History Day. YES. I will see Colin, my love forever. Unfortunately I still don't have my textbooks. Bah!

Bedtime now. Hopefully I'll drift off quickly. I don't think I can handle another day of exhaustion.

13 September 2008

Nights like these are what life is

Hey chums. I didn't write again yesterday. Hahahahaha. Well I suppose every other day is sufficiently consistent! Plus this is mostly for me. And anyone who finds their way over here I guess. But still... me!

Yesterday was lovely etc. Really it was just Latin and Greek as per usual. I have a quiz in Greek on Monday. Ach!!! A bit nervous, really. But I know the verb endings! -ω, -εις, -ει, -ομεν, -ετε, -ουσι(ν). I should be fine. I hope. *gulp*

Last night I went down into T-dot for an evening with Anna and Edie. I actually hadn't seen Edie for about nine months for various reasons. Lewin was supposed to show up, but of course... she didn't. Very typical of her. Things like that are why I got fed up with even trying to maintain some semblance of a relationship with her. I mean really, I'm sure we all love sucking cock but we're not going to ditch our "best friends" of eight years for it are we? 

(I'm not serious... I don't really "love" sucking cock. Not the actual act itself anyway. There are some good aspects I suppose? I don't know, I've only done it a couple of times. Shutting up now.)

(Totally love how I can be honest here because really no one reads this.)

In any case last night was just really nice. We just had a nice dinner at Hoops and laughed and talked. Hung out in the parking lot for a bit, grabbed some coffee at Timmie's, took our time getting back to Anna's on Keele. Random men honking. It was just such a nice evening I think. After Edie went home, Anna and I watched 300 and talked about a variety of intelligent things (of course) before finally going to sleep. 

I just really like being allowed to forget about things for a little while at least. Tonight I'll pay dearly though. I've a lot to get done. Mostly Greek. Though apparently I have to read Works and Days by Monday for my Myth class? News to me, really. I just saw it on the syllabus. 

Happy readings then, lovelies.

11 September 2008

"This morning I chopped off my father's bit!"

I'm not even going to make excuses for not having written a blog yesterday. I actually had NO time. Wednesdays are my hectic days, for sure. I hardly had a break at all.

Tuesday I had my first history tutorial. We didn't do much but I kind of really love my TA, Colin. He's kind of amazing in that he's a third year PhD student and very sexy in a scholarly way. Also he's funny. Everyone in tutorial had a good time I think, haha.

Latin yesterday was pretty typical. Nothing extremely new. Same with Greek. I did find a few more Classical Studies majors in that class though - Vicky (who is Greek) and Sarah (straight from Britain!) 

I had a quick lunch at the car while switching books before dashing to Vanier for my humanities tutorial. That was alright. I had to do a diagnostic essay on an excerpt from Ovid's Ajax versus Ulysses. I think I wrote too much - what else is new! Hahaha. There's one guy in that tutorial that pisses me off though. He talks like a bad-mannered fourteen-year-old (i.e. "chick", "boobies", "popping out babies") and I even think he's older than the rest of us. He disgusts me. Dr. Fisher told him off for the way he spoke anyway. I laughed. At least in the tutorial I met yet another CSer - Natalia. After tutorial I met her friend (I forgot his name) who is also into CS but I'm actually unsure as to whether or not he's majoring in it.

At 3pm I had that volunteer discussion group thing. It was pretty cool. Megan and Barry are nice. I can't talk much about it though - confidentiality rule!

Finally I had my Myth lecture at 4:30. Professor Tordoff lectured this time - an audible gasp went up from the women in the audience when he started talking and we discovered he was EXTREMELY British. I really like Fisher but Tordoff brought the lecture alive with his silly expressions about Kronos cutting off Ouranos' genitals and Kronos eating a rock he thought was Zeus. He had us all laughing many times. I'm really glad I have good profs for that class!

I've just got a history lecture today. Meh. Not REALLY looking forward to it. I still don't have the books. Oops. But I should get them soon, I want Colin to like me because he is an excellent TA and I can only thank him by being an excellent student. I think I have a weird perspective on attractive scholarly people. I don't want them in the pants, I just want them to respect me the way I respect them. Strange! 

09 September 2008

Because I'm Bad, I'm Bad...

Very bad, apparently! I didn't post yesterday. Shame on me! I shall just write everything today I suppose.

Yesterday was... a very great day! Latin was a hoot and a half, as usual. Professor Lewis used a Mickey Mouse song to help us remember verb endings. O, S, T, M-U-S, T-I-S, N-T! She even had a little doll thing that she made dance. And then she asked someone to give her a transitive pattern and Min shouted, "I LOVE YOU!" and she answered, "Thanks, I love you too!" (I love you is transitive... obviously.)

Greek was spectacular. Ish. The very nice girl Jennifer who says a cheery "Good morning!" to everyone who walks in was sitting in the chair that I usually sat in, so I took a seat a couple of rows back. I ended up chatting to Jen about a potential costume part at Halloween for the Greek class. The theme - the gods, of course. :D I think we were just joking but on second thought it might be a brilliant idea. Then Dionysos eventually came in and sat in my row and then I realized with horror that I was sitting in a row with no less than THREE Greek people. Which terrified and intimidated me a little bit... i.e. a lot. Especially when it turned out that we had to read a section of a story about Zeus and a camel out loud. I read before the three Greeks so I know I turned very red, but Professor Surtees didn't correct me even once so I must have been doing something right. What's more, all three of the Greeks struggled! I think it's the vowels. I know how they feel - like them, my instinct is to pronounce the eta "ee", not "ey". Not sure why that is exactly - maybe because I was in Greece a couple of years ago, or because Peter's Greek and that's the way he speaks it. So I didn't feel so bad.

After Greek I decided to just chill out at Central Square and wait for Mom (we were meeting for lunch) so I found a random bench and took out my iCaesar. In my peripheral vision I noticed Dionysos walking around the area. I kind of felt bad because I'd never said hi to him in person (not that I really had a great opportunity to do so), especially since he's in my major and there aren't many of us around. All of a sudden I looked up and there he was! So I've finally met him, and he is such a nice and interesting guy! We chatted for about five minutes and he was very courteous. I was very happy to finally talk to him... talking only on Facebook is just strange.

I ate lunch with Mom outside at 12ish before switching my books at the car and going to the library. I did some Latin there, but only the lesson. Not the exercises. Which means a ton of homework tonight... hahahahaha. Latin AND Greek. Oh well. ANYWAY. I chatted to Anna for a bit on MSN as well, which was nice. Oh and Pan came to visit me here at 2pm, just quickly. He stayed for about forty minutes. It was nice to see him. I don't want to talk about it much here though, it will just bring up bad feelings.

I went to my Myth + Imagination lecture and saw Dionysos - he said a very nice, "Hi, how are you?", and I hate to sound crazy but it made me really happy to know that there are gentlemen out there still. The lecture was fun - we learned a bit about Dionysos (the god, not my peer haha) and Athena, as well as some general characteristics of the gods and the worship of them. 

Afterwards I went home. Actuallly we went to Subway first and I dropped off my resume - Mallorie is getting me a job once again. Hahaha I'm really indebted to her kindness. After THAT I went home... ate dinner, got ready for today, did some reading for history, talked to Anna on the phone... and then it was late so I went to bed. I really did not get much done. I can't have nights like that too often or else I'll be fucked. I already have a lot of work to look forward to when I get home... Latin and Greek mostly, and maybe some reformatting of my Myth lecture notes. The latter can wait though. 

Today's a History day. Lecture at 11:30, tutorial at 2:30. Hopefully I won't get much work (see above). I plan to do some reading after I'm done writing this... Theogony, mostly. If I finish I'll read this Academic Resource thing on York's website I've been meaning to look into. There are honestly so many free things here to help us out. I actually went to the Centre for Academic Writing this morning and applied for a tutor. Should help!

Anyway, off to do some reading... well, I might peruse Socialmoth first. I really need to kick that habit.

Oh and how about the end of the world that might happen tomorrow? Ha!

Well I seriously hope not...

07 September 2008

Fresh Start?

I'm going to skip an intro and go right into the crux of what's going on lately - someone I loved very much hurt me recently, mostly because I hurt him first without meaning to. It's crap. I'm not exactly sure what's going on. I don't know where I stand with him anymore. Everything has been pretty upside down since Thursday. It's a hard cross to bear, especially since this whole issue has resulted in my discovery that I am a cold, closed person. It pains me so much to even write that, because I can't believe that I'm the one who put myself in the position of being so heartbreakingly alone. Why? I have some underlying issues, I know. I'm working on it, but in some respects it could be too late.

Class on Friday was my only incentive to drag myself out of bed. Last night, working on my Latin homework while finally pouring my heart out to Anna about this whole situation quelled my emotions and gave me some stability. For the first night in three nights, I didn't cry myself to sleep. 

I'm thinking that once again, my education is becoming my anchor. Going to school is just my priority. But haven't I run into trouble with that one?

"I can stay if you want me to."

I said no. Of course. Why would I be so selfish and tell him to give up a great education? Because I loved him? Well, I did, and that's why I let him go without doing anything, wasn't it?

I don't know. I never wanted this blog to be about my emotions. Or about this roller coaster ride that my friendship with someone has become. I suppose I can't help it. Blogs are about life. This is part of my life. 

I think I've hurt a lot of people in my lifetime. I'm trying to ignore the fact that this last thing has had an effect on me as well. It makes me feel selfish. I've got this hang-up about being selfish don't I?

I don't even know why I posted today. Just to say, I fucking love school and it is my point in life. Yeah, that's it.

06 September 2008

I'm a bad person...

... because I didn't post yesterday.

Sincere apologies, but some pretty stupid shit stuff has happened lately.

Don't really want to talk about it, but I might not post here tomorrow.

Latin and Greek class went well though.

04 September 2008

Oof...

... it is LATE. 

But I promised I'd write today, didn't I? Ach and merde. Okay well I will give a quick rundown.

So yesterday was the first day of classes. Jolly good! Latin at 9:30 with Anne-Marie Lewis was a party and a half. Or not. BUT Jyoti is in that class with me so I sat with her and a girl she'd met (Kate) so I had people to talk to. I feel a lot less nervous now because everyone in there looked petrified and I don't feel scared of Latin in the slightest. I figure if I can learn French...? It looks like it's going to be a lot of fun though. Professor Lewis is very charismatic. She came in the room speaking Latin to us. And she mentioned Caesar! I love her already of course.

10:30 was Classical Greek with Professor Allison Surtees. She seems very nice. The room (Ross N145) is huge and pretty as well. Too big - meanwhile my Latin classroom is cramped! Anyway we didn't stay long there - only half an hour - because Surtees let us out to go buy books. I already had mine, teehee. She kind of scared me a bit though. She's very straightforward and plainly told us that it would be a difficult course if we didn't keep up.

After Greek I kind of just chilled out under a tree outside and ate my lunch. I spent some time on the floor of Vari Hall before heading to my Myth and Imagination tutorial. Lo and behold, one of my professors - Dr. Fisher - leads my tutorial. Success! Good news. However he let us out after only fifteen minutes as opposed to two hours because we hadn't had a lecture yet. Still, he was very nice and told us a bit about the course and advised us to start reading Theogony by Hesiod.

I proceeded from Vanier to another tree under whcih I sat until I ventured to the library and getting NOTHING done (haha). Ashley texted me so I met her at the Student Centre and had a vitamin water. Can I just say, I LOVE vitamin water. But not the actual brand called Vitamin Water. I like the Aquafina Plus - it's not as syrupy, and Sakura in York Lanes sells it for $1.98 a bottle. A rival to Bubble Tea! Anyway, after Ashley finished her lunch we went to chill out at Vanier Field where we met Joey, a fourth-year from Ashley's college (Founders) who was very nice and funny. 

I headed back to the library until it was time for my lecture at 4:30. HUGE class. 425 people! Lecture hall was packed. Prof Fisher did the little introduction thing and was very humourous. He talked a bit about Theogony and about Pan (the god, not Peter's friend haha), and about the course obviously. I am very excited for it, it looks like it is going to be extremely fun.

I was finally done for the day, but exhausted. I got home rather late by my standards, and then took a shower after dinner, so it was probably 8:30ish when I started to take a look at my homework. The Greek really threw me for a loop. I panicked - a lot. The alphabet seemed easy enough but the accents and syllables... O_O 

Up until this morning I was worried, but then I went to the library (my history lecture didn't start until 11:30) and worked on the Greek and... I UNDERSTAND IT! I actually came home today and took notes from the lessons (for Latin as well) and it makes so much more sense. I guess I just needed to clear my mind. 

History lecture was alright. The syllabus is what I was expecting from a Social and Cultural History course. Interesting enough, I suppose. Better than 1010 anyway. I've heard enough about war and revolution from Rettig, thanks! After lecture I just kind of chilled out... ate lunch in Curtis after opting out of the YFS health plan, then spent the rest of my time in the library studying Latin and reading Theogony.

So it's been a good first two days, schoolwise. Personal lifewise, my life has really gone downhill. I don't even want to talk about it, but it just seems like some people are making excuses and becoming completely different people all of a sudden. People I can't trust for shit. I suppose I can't do anything about it, but today for the first time in my life I actually felt like I was completely alone in the world. It was not a nice feeling. I would have broken down if I was that type of person. 

In any case, I hope this passes. I'm kind of happy one moment but sad when I think about the way things are going outside of school. I shouldn't have to worry about other people and their decisions. Ice queen, come on!!! 

03 September 2008

Ugh.

Okay. Writing a post this evening just isn't practical. I have a bunch of stuff I want to review, and I'm exhausted, and I need to sleep, and I got home late because my lecture didn't let out early.

I have a lot of free time after my history lecture tomorrow though. I think I'll update then. Because really... I'm pooped!

What the hell?

I just wrote a really long entry and suddenly Safari quit unexpectedly. UGH.

Well, that makes me angry. I cannot sit here on the floor of Vari Hall and type it all out again.

Maybe it was for the better though. It's somewhat silly to have told you about only part of my day. I'll probably post from home so I can talk about the Myth + Imagination lecture I'm going to in forty-five minutes.

Until then, I suppose1

02 September 2008

Ch-ch-changes

I'm in a bit of a crap/ exhausted mood today so I'm going to try to be semi-bubbly, but I can't promise anything.

Today was York Day. Hurray! I went down to the Information Fair at Tait, perused the choice of groups, met Dori from the UHSA, got some free stuff, and ran into Dale, which was a good thing. We mostly walked around, then we met up with her friend before going to find their classes. We met some idiots who were under the impression that classes started today and were waiting for their profs. Haha! What losers! Anyway, we went for lunch at the Student Centre (I had souvlaki from the Greek place), then went to Scott Library (they hadn't been there) before splitting up. I mostly just chilled out and fiddled around with my iPod. Checked out my history books in the bookstore. They are so small, which is not really very helpful considering that on Tuesdays and Thursdays it's my only class anyway.

It was a good day I guess. I've kind of had a shadow over me since I spoke to Anna of her very strange night last night, and since Peter's started acting weird. I should just stop worrying about other people. Yes, I should.

I think I'm just realizing again how much things have changed and are still changing. It's not that I'm scared, it's that I don't like the way things are going.

Oh well. Classes start tomorrow, and I am very excited!

01 September 2008

Nervous!

September 1st - finally! I feel like September has taken forever to come around. Two more sleeps until classes start! I know, it's all I've been saying.

I added this guy Dionysos to Facebook a while back - he's also a Classical Studies major. I found out today that he's going to be in my Greek class. Which is nice since I don't really know anyone in that class. At the same time, I'm kind of nervous. This guy is Greek - born there and lived there and everything. Yet he's been placed in Elementary Classical Greek. Obviously Modern and Classical are different, but I thought it would at least give him an advantage, perhaps getting placed in the 2000-level. So I'm kind of nervous. I have NO experience with Greek, really... how am I going to stand up to someone like him?

Maybe I'm just disoriented and thrown off by the alphabet. It could be just as easy as French was. Though I did have eight years to learn French. Ah I don't know!

I suppose I'm just getting last-minute jitters. 

Anyway, tomorrow is "York Day". The student clubs and stuff will be set up at the Tait Mackenzie Centre. There will be free things. I'll probably go check it out - I'm interested in joining the Classical Studies Student Association and the Undergraduate History Students Association.