I'm actually not dead

Just piled with work. But I am alive and kicking! And in the Student Centre (which is currently being decorated for York's birthday) with a chai latte. Rawr.

So. Things. Last Monday was my birthday! I got the iPod clock radio I had been planning to buy. Thanks parents! It's actually gorgeous, I effing love it. It functions as an excellent stereo as well so it's totally wicked. Emi bought me some orgasmic body spray too - lime coconut and mango mandarin. We went out for dinner at Kelsey's that night and I had a lime daiquiri. The lovely and nice waiter brought me molten lava cake that was fresh baked and delicious despite the fact that I hate chocolate. Dio also sang me happy birthday that day. And was all hippy and asked me to drink his blood. I can't remember the circumstances, just that I love him!

Last Tuesday I was assigned a mammoth 20% essay by my dear Colin, who stops being dear when he piles on the work. However the topics were really interesting. I'm doing mine on British Music Hall. I have books and excellent articles. Might do well on it. I hope so!

Got my Iliad paper back last Wednesday. Got an A? Yes I did. Go me! I was ecstatic.

I understand Latin lately. Except that I have to start learning the fourth principal part. Argh. Lucius, tuus pater sum! Yes, I just said Luke I am your father in Latin. Anyway, we had a test Monday, on which I received a 95. Niceh niceh. My lowest so far is an 87.

I understand Greek contract verbs now. But froze during the quiz on Monday. I don't think I did very well on it but the important thing is that I get it now. The Greek third declension? No so much. I'm working on it though.

I don't know what else to say. I worked last weekend? It was an alright weekend but I was exhausted as I was up til 11 doing work Friday.

This weekend will be crazy. Schedule:
- Tomorrow night = Rocky Horror @ the Bloor with Anna, Edie, Jared, and Chris. This will involve drinking.
- Saturday morning (FUCKING EARLY) = getting picked up by Dad
- Saturday evening = fucktard family coming over for mine and Emi's birthday
- Sunday morning = work bright and early at 8 a.m.
- Sunday afternoon/ evening = going to see Christina for her 25th
- Sunday night = passed out dead from lack of oxygen and/or sleep

As you can see, I am booked booked booked. People don't believe me when they say I have no time. Therefore I have been attempting to get more homework done during this week.

Actually, right now I should be either reading Antigone or working on the Latin paper on Horace which is due May 4th. Eh. Everyone needs a break? Well, I don't have class til 11:30 today and then it's just for an hour so I should be alright.

What else? I can't remember everything, but the nub and gist of what should come next is that I fucking love my friends.

Hopelessly, I'll love you endlessly

Things. Thingie things.

Things have been okay? I think.

School is school. Not much happened this week other than I probably bombed Thursday's 1050 midterm. *sigh* I love passive verbs in Latin though. Latin makes my heart sing.

Life is life? Talked to Peter Friday and loved him. Things seem to have calmed down with psycho girl but she's still a total bitch. But it's okay because she fails. In an epic way.

Yesterday was the ROM. Book of the Dead of Amen-em-hat. It was a fantastic time! I brought Emi along. We went for lunch at Jack Astor's. I love my Classics friends!!!!! Then on the way home, we passed by Mom and Dad's old houses, like when they were small. Like, when my grandparents immigrated here. I got goosebumps. I'd seen the houses in photos but it's weird to actually BE there. We even passed by the grocery store where Mom and Dad met. It was wicked.

I finished the Bakkhai really quickly. Why? Because it was amazing. Very amazing. Uber-amazing.

Studying for tomorrow's Greek quiz that I'm going to fail.

Tomorrow is my birthday? I'll be 19. Geezer!

Did I mention that I love my two Special Ones way too much? Probably.

Today is the Ides of March. R.I.P. Gaius Julius Caesar, probably one of the greatest leaders this world has ever seen.

"Bear with me; my heart is in the coffin there with Caesar, and I must pause till it come back to me."

Oops.

Love might lead me to the ER soon.

Not of my own doing. Just so y'all know.

However, after some hesitation and second thoughts and ideas of maybe letting this one slide, I have decided to just accept it.

First off, I could press charges.

Secondly... I think he might be worth it.

Monday?!

But that's four days away!

;_;

I miss him already?

Hahahaha, lifey lifey life!

I laugh.

Five hours of sleep.

Coffee and a muffin?

Is this poetry?

http://youmakemetouchyourhandsforstupidreasons.ytmnd.com/

The above is amazing.

I have to go to the drugstore today.

I am not getting enough work done but I have two hours.

My five-year plan is being demolished by 2110 and the fact that its time slot is a bitch and doesn't agree with my GK 2000 course. FUCK YOU! There is just not enough time to take all the courses I want.

An attractive Jew just walked by. I am feeling particularly Week-like because my monthly curse didn't visit this month. Therefore I would like to have sex with him.

I am in love with two beautiful things. Oops. It's their fault.

I am getting all weird because of the coffee and the aforementioned issues with my course plan. Fack mah laife. Mom was right when she told me not to plan so extensively but I needed to in order to maintain my sanity :)

Chickachickayeee!

... as Dim would say.

Quick updat0rz? Well, I got my Latin and Greek exams back. 92.5% and 96% respectively. Yus! I got the A+s I wanted. I am only mildly pissed that all the mistakes I made were stupid ones. It's not that I didn't know things, but that I was careless. I was fully capable of getting perfect on both of them. Ah well.

Didn't get the Iliad essay back. However, Fisher specifically mentioned mine (and Petra's) in class as being brilliant so I am very happy and hopeful. A B+ is all I ask for!

Lost was great tonight but now I have so much work to catch up on. *sigh*

Job interview in the Faculty of Science Friday. Joy joy joy!

Almost my birthday. Oof.

I am so in love right now. Not with Peter. Well, with him too, but I am not really referring to him, if that makes sense. I don't know. Things are stirring. Let's see where this takes us, shall we? Life is fucked.

And I don't mind. :)

Polyamory is difficult though.

Seems that all I really was doing was waiting for you...

Oh, contentment.

Seven hours of studying happily resulted in my slaying of the easy peasy four pages that was my Latin exam in about half an hour. Despite a fire alarm in CLH at about 3:25, we managed to start it just twenty minutes later without much hassle.

Went to Anna's. Had a great salad and laughed at the lunacy of her family. We decorated her wall with pages from NOW magazine and watched hilarious things on TV. Stayed up til 3 a.m. just talking about the randomest things in that sort of delirious mode that my body sets itself to when I'm awake for 21 hours.

Woke up at 8:30ish this morning and headed downtown for her physics lecture. We ate lemon cranberry muffins. Her prof is funny and small. Then we dashed to Queen and Come As You Are and I bought a rubber flogger that hurt like a bitch and saw all the hurty things that made me lovelovelove Peter, mein liebchen, which I have been doing more since we have made our relationship less mad. More on that later. Anyway, then we got lemon crêpes to go from Our Place and I loved life a lot and we got back in time and no trouble from parents because they didn't find out I was lying. It was just a good day.

And I lovelovelove Peter. I said that but I am saying it again. Things are fucked. We aren't 'together' the way we were between September and February. But we are 'together' in the way we were from October to August. And you know what? I prefer that. It's less serious. It's less pressure. I can be more appreciative. I don't automatically go from thinking PETER to thinking PROBLEM OMG I WILL NEVER SEE HIM. Obviously that's on my mind but it just does not bother me anymore. I can't really label what's going on. Am I single? Am I "taken" (or rather, have I taken someone? Because no one takes me, bitch)? I don't know, I can't answer that. He's got his Facebook bit set to "In an open relationship" again and it makes me really happy.

Maybe we can be Brian Kinney and Justin Taylor the way I always wanted. Once they had their outline in place, they became happy.

And shut the fuck up, world. I don't care what you say. I can be mad about Peter and mad about this other upstart bloke at the same time! Well I don't know if I'm mad about him... but sometimes he won't get out of my brain. I don't know where it's going to go but I would like to have a small something with him at least for a few minutes, just a few minutes of connection, you know?

But he's not Peter. No one is Peter. And I don't want anyone else to be Peter.

<3

I'm in love all over again. Shit.

Gone Fishin'

Or just to school and then Anna's till tomorrow.

Tomorrow will be a fun purchasing day! :D

STOP IT!

Today I went to the ROM. Jolly fun times. It was a good day with Mike and Natalia and Widad. New adventures and such. We saw the diamond exhibit, which was wicked awesome.

But now my brain is really all over the place and I am going insane. So many thoughts at once. Oh so many doubts. Too fucking many. I don't know what anything means anymore. I don't know what HE means when he says those things, or when he leans in close, or when the lightest touch sets off all kinds of alarms inside my head. Why? Fuck, why?

Peter's being disgustingly supportive, and I hate it. I am never happy though. If he was being sulky, I'd hate that too. I just don't like having him be the supportive friend. He's my love, and my lovER. He can never be less than that even when we are eventually 100% done with each other.

Too many thoughts. Too many fucking feelings. Can I give up on emotions for Lent?

Ohne dich kann ich nicht sein...

Where to begin? Well.

Friday, I do not remember anything, mostly because I was at home doing nothing because of exam break. Saturday was work. Aruna is back, fun times. It was rather busy Saturday, actually.

Sunday I was off work - FUCK YES. I went to Rogers and got a new phone, a red Motokrazr. I was initially very sad to let my old Nokia go but I am really liking the new one. Spiffy and new :) Pissed I can't get my own ringtone on there though. I keep trying to get Ulysses but it's not working! After Rogers I went to the ACE basement and met up with Tallee, Viki, Dio, Athina, Sarah, and my other Greek mates. Dio was hilarious and I loved him a lot that day, because he is just a beautiful person. And he told me I had ancient eye structure and insisted that I am not Italian but Greek (because of Magna Grecia). I am going to be sad to see him go this summer :( The exam went very well though.

No school this week. Monday I made my awesome Middle Eastern meal. Homemade tahini, hummus, falafels, and patates salatasi. It was a lot of work but so worth it. The food was amazing. I had SO much hummus left and I thought we'd never get rid of it but we finished it this evening O_O

(Random note: No You Girls is on the new iTouch commercial, which is a bad thing because it causes periodic near-orgasms, because that song is obviously about femdom and Alex Kapranos would be the most delicious sub ever.)

Yesterday I spent a lot of time working on the Latin review, and talking to Anna about all sorts of weird BDSM things, which has sadly and/or happily become our lives these days. I also watched Verfolgt a.k.a. Punish Me, which was an excellent but heartbreaking film. Also, Kostja Ullmann would be the second most delicious sub ever.

I might buy a flogger and/or a crop on Monday and I am excited as fuck. Even though I don't really have anyone to use them on.

Speaking of which, I still don't know what's going on with Peter. We are on speaking terms now but it is mostly very friendly... well, no, not friendly. It's very sexually charged, maybe even more so than before, as things always are when we're making up after a fight. However I really don't know if we are just going to pick up the relationship where we left off. Things are really different this time around. I think I've finally pushed him into acknowledging that there are a lot of problems with this set-up. We've sort of just decided to cool things down for about two weeks. We're not fighting and I don't think we're "together" (though his Facebook still says he is "In A Relationship"...), but we are still in love and that's really about it. I am wondering if this is a step to giving the poly thing a go. Is it poly or open? I don't really know. I don't think he's poly. I think I might be. I'm always in love with more than one person at once. I am right now. Badly. But I actually cannot discuss who the other person is because it could fuck things up terribly as he is also a really good friend of mine and I don't want to mess with that. What scares me is that I am getting this vibe that he is interested... so... even though I tell Peter that the opportunities don't really come up... well, they might. Or one might. Bah. It's the first test, of myself and of Pete. I wish all relationships were easy and black and white instead of black and blue and totally fucked up. *sigh*

Going to the ROM tomorrow with Mike, Natalia, and Widad. I'll probably buy a membership this time, which will make me feel retarded for not doing so last time, but such is life.

"You'd rather be a bitch than be an ordinary broken heart"

I really wish I could update with gusto. But I cannot.

Things of note? Two tests went well yesterday? Spent a few hours at Anna's, watching Shortbus and Young People Fucking (both hilarious, but Shortbus was more artistic - love that John Cameron Mitchell!) Handed in the essay, went to a useless lecture, then got to spend at least a few minutes with Mike. Was with him for about forty minutes in the morning, actually. He was playing AOM before class haha.

Today was alright. Slightly boring. Was with Mike for a couple of hours though, because he's nice like that and is somehow around to keep me company when I need it. I like friends! I might be going down to the ROM again on the 26th. Natalia and Mike are def going, not sure who else. Hopefully Viki, whom I love a lot because she is an amazing girl.

Don't know what's going on with Peter. Haven't talked to him since Thursday. I sent him another email. This one was rather long and ranty and really just schizo. Hopefully he won't ignore it. I just want to know what's going on, really. I'm half of this relationship and it's pathetic that I don't know if it's over or not.

Off tomorrow. Off til the 4th of March, actually. Exam on Sunday (no work at Subway, woo!) and another on March 2nd.

Taking the night off, I think. But I did so yesterday to watch Lost (which was AMAZING) so I might feel slightly guilty...

........

I'm so bad at this.

But it's been a rough week.

I promise that tomorrow I will write something. Maybe.

Damn.

I intended to update.

But I am in a very shitty mood right now.

I can't see my prof for office hours before the essay is due so I don't know if it's even good at all.

Also, I might be single.

At least I got a 97 on Monday's Greek quiz. And had a really fantastic day yesterday. Sarah, Viki, Natalia, Mike, and Dio make my life worth living some days.

Note to self.

Update tomorrow.

:D I'm funny.

I'm still bloody terrible at this

I still don't update often enough. Bah.

Well. I was going to retype my whole spiel about my history paper that somehow got deleted from my last blog, but I'll skip it and just inform you that even though Colin scared the crap out of me and made me think I'd gotten a D, I really pulled off an A. BECAUSE I AM JUST THAT AWESOME! And a history genius.

It was really nice to see Colin again. I missed him! He is just such a genuinely nice person and I like hearing what he has to say about what we've been doing in class. Also he was really happy that I started that topic about Germinal on Moodle once I'd finished reading it. Apparently the profs were really happy with him and the rest of the TAs were jealous. Ha! Wonder if that had anything to do with the A I got... nah, just kidding.

Wednesday was fine, obv. Latin and Greek still make sense, thankfully. Had a good tutorial with Fisher and then just spent the rest of the day goofing around with Natalia and Mike. We didn't go to lecture because they were screening Full Metal Jacket and we'd already watched it. Earlier that morning I bought a regular chai latte from Second Cup. I put two packets of Splenda in it and shook some cinnamon on top. Just so you know - it's an orgasm. In a fucking cup. It was amazing. I had one this morning but there was no cinnamon, only vanilla powder :( IT'S NOT THE SAME! But the hot emo guy was working so I can get over the absence of cinnamon.

Lost was good Wednesday. Ooer. I can't even remember my days anymore.

Yesterday was history lecture and then doc appointment, which was fine. I just have blood in my urine and might die of kidney failure. Haha kidding. We don't know what's wrong with me but I've got to book an appointment with Dr. Langer so he can refer me to a urologist. Chances are nothing's wrong. Sometimes having a small amount of blood in one's urine is hereditary, and pretty much all of Dad's family has it. They've just got to be wary because I'm at risk of diabetes because of my PCOS. PCOS has to be the fucking worst non-fatal condition to have. It fucks up your life, seriously. Sometimes I don't know how I wake up in the morning. I'm just going to fall apart one day anyway!

Just a word of note - www.failblog.org and www.fmylife.com are two really fucking amazing websites for a few - i.e. nine thousand - good laughs.

I can't really think of anything else to say. I'm at 581 words in my essay. I sat staring at the screen for a while last night. Barely wrote anything. Couldn't focus. A few reasons why. Can't talk about them. General sexual frustration is probably the root problem. Amazing how much hold it can have over us. I need to shut myself off.

I am working tomorrow and it makes me want to cry. Between work and school, I won't have a day off until the 16th, which I will likely use to study for exams. (By the way, no midterm-period history exam, it will be on March 12th, and part two of the newspaper essay isn't due til the 10th, yay!)

I am contemplating booking Valentine's Day off, but I don't know yet whether or not I'll need a day off for a weekend exam. I just wanted to go chill with Anna on the 14th since we'll both be alone. And I was going to go downtown to buy a crop! Still not sure if I can take the day off though. We'll see. I hope the fucking inspector doesn't come tomorrow. I don't think he usually comes on a Saturday but he did that time I took the day off to meet my mates for Chrimb - December 20th, it was.

I am just really unsatisfied with my job. I need a new one.

Good news though - History of Astronomy is offered over SU term so I'll be taking it this summer :D

It's so good to be back!

So. I'm back at York! :D 

Actually, I was back yesterday, but a combination of being busy and being lazy and the fact that 24 was on really prevented me from writing anything (or doing any homework). 

It was so fantastic to be back yesterday. I was so happy to see the hustle and bustle. Everyone I know was in high spirits about being back (though there are occasional grumblings, not to mention the whole campaign to have YFS President Osman impeached). There were random camera crews everywhere though. It was annoying. I wish they would have just left us alone to continue our education in peace. They don't seem to be around today though. A good thing, in my opinion. Maybe the snow chased them away! (Speaking of which, it def took us TWO HOURS to get here today, as opposed to the usual forty minutes) 

Classes were good. Professor Lewis was happy to see us and we reviewed about 6 chapters of Latin. I think I'm going to be okay for the exam - I completed up to Chapter 16 on my own and we're only doing 14 by midterm. We've got an assignment for winter term though, damn.

Greek was fun because it's always been a very relaxed atmosphere as it is. Dionysos was up to his usual antics. Being friends with Viki now makes it more fun as well. I sat in a row with her, Sarah, Natalia, Elias, and Frank (the latter two are random Greek guys who major in kines, Elias in second year and Frank in third year). It's just fun and better than Sarah and I sitting in drowsy isolation in our little row, or in the row behind it when the Greeks took it. But now they shan't since they're our friends :D What saddened me about Greek class was that Surtees looks like she must have dropped 10 to 15 pounds since the strike started. She wasn't big as it is. It's sad, because it means she just didn't have enough money to pay for both rent and food since she's contract. :( Poor CUPEs. I love them all. Anyway, we have to be up to Chapter 12 by midterm - nice, since I'm at Chapter 11!

After Greek was a five-hour break. I spent the first hour eating lunch alone, but then was joined by Natalia, Mike, and Viki at 12:30. Viki ended up leaving after a while but the other two and I just chilled in Vari killing that time. It goes by sooooooo slowly. But it's nice to spend it with them because we have a lot of random fun :D 

Anna came to visit at around 4:15 so I took her to Myth lecture. Myth lecture was like a speed-analysis through Books 18-24 of The Iliad. Tordoff was lecturing, naturally, despite his obvious case of the sniffles. He even read from the ancient Greek again, his accent is TOO funny. Surtees would be appalled! Then we got some fantastic fucking news about the new syllabus. Our Iliad essay isn't due til the 18th. YESSSS. I'm at 453 words already. Some people haven't even started to read The Iliad. I am AHEAD! Also, we ARE having a midterm, but we don't have a final exam for that course :O We all clapped. Amazing! Instead we'll have two in-tutorial assignments as well as a test at the end of classes (second-last week of May-ish).

Today I've just got history - lecture at 11:30 and tutorial with COLIN!

[AUTHOR'S NOTE - I definitely had a whole paragraph here about my history course but for some reason it didn't post so I guess I'll write it again later, fack]

I just hope it's not due the 18th like The Iliad one. It'd be nice if it's due after the exam break so I'd have that time to work on it.

A bit of good news - History of Astronomy is offered in the SU term :) I am probably going to take it. It'd be more practical to take it this year just because I'd rather save next year for working completely full-time the full four months. I do plan to work this summer but obviously not completely full-time. I really want to get a job on/ around campus, that way Mom can drive me here and home everyday. I could actually work Monday to Friday. Because I want weekends off, damn it! Is that so much to ask for? Only problem is that Dad is bent on going up to the Koufis' cottage for a week, but if I have a course, no can do. I'll probably stay with Mom's Greek friend Betty. Which would be good if I have a job around here since she lives right at Sentinel and Four Winds. It will give me so much freedom :D Or I could stay at Anna's but I'm not sure how that will work. We'll see. 

So I'm just chilling in the Student Centre for now. It's getting more lively at this hour. More people showing up. The usual buzz :P Good to be back!

I'm Learnding!

Monday, I will be back at school.

SQUEE.

The legislation passed yesterday. Sessional dates are out and they're actually having an SU term!! Fingers crossed History of Astronomy is offered. 

I am very happy, despite the fact that a bunch of vindictive assholes are trying to bankrupt the university via a class action law suit. But, let's ignore 'em. I'll be glad to get back to my York.

Finally talked to Peter yesterday. Happy about that. I don't like going too long without talking to him. It worries me. He's just been feeling upset lately, and he didn't want to talk to me because he had a feeling we'd get into an argument.

Anna's also been very testy lately and I am not appreciating it in the slightest. She's developed this habit of being disgustingly condescending. I can only take so much these days. But once I am back in school I will have a very valid reason to ignore all the BS that comes up and voilà, no longer my problem. I have to learn to be cold and distant again. This is what happens when I have feelings. I knew they were a bad idea. It's okay, this is Day One of telling anyone to fuck off if they decide to shit all over me about what's wrong in their lives. Solution :D

Yesterday Dio told me that he's taking a year off next year to live in Greece and do some travelling. And then he might switch to university in Greece. Note to self: Don't be friends with Greeks. They'll all leave you in the end. I am actually very sad about this. *sigh*

Well, I'm off to... er... do something. I still haven't started that essay. Big trouble. 

Bridges are Burning, I'm Finally Learning

My relationship is falling apart.

Yes, thank you, all you nay-sayers about long-distance relationships, for being so damn insightful. 

I haven't talked to Peter on the phone since last Tuesday, when we listened to the inauguration together and he cried because he is just everything I'm not and I don't cry, ever, even when it'd be to my benefit. We haven't talked in general since Thursday. 

Lately when we do talk, I feel like there is nothing to say, or if I want to say something, I can't say it, because I'm afraid of what he'll think. I fail at being a Domme, I'm not supposed to give a shit about what he thinks. But I do. Because I love him. And that's the only thing I find myself capable of discussing with him. The fact that I love him.

And what the fuck are we going to do? 

While his visit last month was beautiful and wonderful and everything was just so happy and lalalalala etc, I feel like it only really showed us how hard this thing is going to be. The seven months he was gone were hard, of course. But this last month has been so much harder, just because I had him back for a few hours and then suddenly he was just ripped away from me AGAIN. For fuck's sake, I can't believe that my one chance at something good like this has to be fucked up so greatly.

I suppose it's my fault for telling him I wanted him to go. Not that I wanted him out, but I wanted him to do what he wanted to do, and he is just Greece on Legs. He needs to be there. It's where he belongs.

Where do I belong? Do I belong here? I'm so stubborn about staying here and people ask me if I'll ever go live with him. I've missed Greece - specifically Athens - with all my heart everyday since I came back from there in 2006, but what does that mean? And do I want him to come back here after the five years? And does HE want to come back? Do I want to wait til I'm done my Ph.D.? But where the fuck would I teach in Greece if I don't speak the language? 

Breaking up with him seems reasonable and simultaneously unreasonable. I have no real reason to, you see. A pre-emptive breakup seems juvenile and there really wouldn't be any closure. I'd just keep loving him and he just might hate me. Maybe that's why we're so quick to fight with each other. I have a feeling he's thinking the same things, and we just get into it over stupid little things because we need a reason to end this but we just can't bloody find one. The fights never last. We forgive each other too easily and then are drunk on renewed love for a week or two. He fucking cheated on me and all I could do was love him, not even get angry about it. 

Fuck life. When did I get so damn sentimental? I'm writing a whole blog post about how much I love my boyfriend. I'm almost catching Normal. It's disgusting. I wonder if OHIP covers the Normal shot. 

Anna suggested we just sort of let it go and agree that we'll be together again five years from now if it's in the cards. But thinking of that makes my heart just... writhe. I can't do that. I mean, Peter's a huge slut and snogs most things that walk unless they're animals or children. And you know what? I can totally handle that. It doesn't bother me in the slightest. But the fact is that I know he still loves me and that I am his "Official Girlfriend" (omgz) and it makes all the difference. 

We tried to make this an "open relationship" thing when he left but look how that turned out. He had this weird idea that I was out fucking a million guys, or at least wanted to. Obviously, I was not. I did that for HIM, so HE didn't feel trapped. If he could understand that then it might work. 

Or not. Because, really, what is the point of that? The problem isn't that we want to see other people. The problem is that we want to see each other and we just fucking can't. 

And maybe I want some aspects of the Normal Relationship. I want him to meet my family, and I want them to like him even though he's got eight piercings and a tattoo and fucked me while they were shopping and lets me do really painful things to him. I want to bring him to my cousin's birthday and watch him play games with Alessia and Isabella, the way Diana can watch Frankie or Josie can watch Anthony. Even though it's annoying, I want Uncle Gino to pester me about my boyfriend and tell him to bring him over for Easter. I want him to meet my godfather, and they can talk about the homeland they share, in Greek, and Uncle Chris will get all befuddled because Peter's Greek is better than his. 

And I want him to meet my friends. Like, my real friends. I want him to meet Anna. That's so important to me. She's talked to him online and they seem to get along, which is a good sign because neither of them put on a Web Mask. But I want them to meet and actually Talk because they are both really good at Talking. With a capital T. Like, REALLY Talking. Not just speaking. Talking. 

I guess we just can't get what we want. I don't know what to do about this. We've been talking about the "open" thing but I just feel he's going to misunderstand it again. I've just got this weird idea that it'd be such a waste to sit around here like Penelope waiting for her Odysseus only to have Odysseus not return home this time. But I am not Penelope, there ARE no suitors running around here. So am I really wasting my time?

But what if there are suitors who just aren't revealing themselves because they think I'm unavailable? Are we only capable of loving one person at once? I think I've always had polyamorous tendencies. 

Conclusion: Fuck my life.

Other things? Last Wednesday I went to the ROM with Sarah, Natalia, Viki, Mike, and a girl named Widad who is a friend of Natalia and Mike's. It was such a fucking great time, especially since Sarah had never been there. All of us but Widad were Classics/ History majors so we had a Classics nerd orgy on the third floor. This is different from a sex orgy. Classics nerd orgies are just all of us talking at once really fast and really loudly about different parts of the exhibit and just getting drunk off the beauty of the common interest. It was a good time. Mike is rather amazing too, he named all the types of dinosaurs just by looking at their fossils. Brilliant much? Be still my beating heart. 

I worked over the weekend. Most obviously, since I always do. Saturday was hell though. I worked a nine-hour shift (literal nine, felt more like Greek nine) because it was our Grand Opening sale (two months after we opened??) and we had a Buy One Get One Free thing. It took SIX employees to keep it going the eight hours. Apparently Ray LOST money. Well, good for him, he was giving me hell Saturday about things he NEVER trained me for. And also for things I didn't do. Things done FRIDAY NIGHT, yet I work Saturday and Sunday mornings. At least I made about seventy bucks. Sunday was SO quiet compared to Saturday, I'm telling you. Nine hours... longest shift I've ever worked, probably. I think at Taco Bell I worked eight and a half once, but it was a Sunday so it wasn't steady business like this time was. Everytime I looked up the line seemed LONGER. Utter fucking madness.

Want to hear some madly happy news? McGuinty is imposing Back to Work Legislation! Okay, okay, I know, it's not that happy. I voted NDP. I am firmly pro-union, anti-government, no pasaran, all that anarchist propaganda shit. HOWEVER. Like all humans, and don't anyone argue this with me, I am inherently self-concerned. I want to go back to school. I want to go back to class. So, yeah, it sucks that the government's involved and that even though CUPE has lowered their demands twice since the No vote came out Tuesday York won't negotiate. But sometimes these things happen. Sometimes the little guy doesn't win. 

The NDP is holding up the legislation for now, but we should be back by Friday or Monday or something. It will be good to be back, except that essay still hasn't been started XD I'm terrible. Maybe I'll work on it today after I read four boring-ass articles for history. 

Still, 3903 should take pride in the fact that they've inspired other divisions - 3902 (U of T), 3907 (OISE), and 4600 (CarletonU). 

I hope in a few years' time their plan to strike all at once happens. The chaos will be so beautiful. *shiver*

I am incapable of creative blog titles

This is being done just for the sake of documentation of the life that is mine, and also pathetico.

Wednesday, we went to York. Fun times. Results from blood test not too alarming, looks like just a weird reading came out, same thing happened before so I went back into the lab today to do it again. After the appointment we went to the bookstore (bought a book by Adrian Goldsworthy, "The Fall of Carthage") and Tim Horton's and I took Emi to see a few classes of mine... we had lunch with Mom at the Student Centre, then chilled out in the biblio where we found another Orgasm Aisle i.e. DF/DG, the Ancient History Aisle. I borrowed three books; two biographies of Antony, and The Last Temptation of Christ by Nikos Kazantzakis. Last stop was a Bubble Tea before we went home.

Thursday and Friday were negligible from what I remember. I did watch a great French film Friday night though. It was called The Last Mistress. Very excellent.

Saturday and Sunday was work. Easy peasy. Mexican guys hit on me on Saturday though.

Saturday evening we saw Valkyrie and, um, it was incredible. I actually downloaded it today. Very quick download from Vuze, about an hour and a half. Woot!

Yesterday I met up with Athina, Viki, Natalia, and Sarah to do some studying for Greek. We didn't get much done - too much catching up! But we did clear some things up about a few lessons we were confused about. Tomorrow I'm going to the ROM with the latter three plus Mike. Should be fun!!!

Today was inauguration day and the new President is Obama. I don't have to say much about this since it's actually a major part of history and so my documentation of it will only pale in comparison to what else is being written. But he's still alive, yay! And his speech was fantastic.

That's about all for now. Too many people talking to me on MSN. I am getting scared of my computer.

Also...

I miss Sarah, Jyoti, Viki, Natalia, and Mike A LOT!